I have now had 4 ketamine treatments and I feel so much better. Monday is #5 and I can't wait. My fear is that this is short-lived, and that as we start tapering off the depression will return. That happened to me with ECT. Although I didn't do maintenance with ECT- I was waiting for my memory to return first. And it never did, so I never did the maintenance.
I wonder what works better- ketamine or ECT. Unfortunately insurance pays for ECT but not ketamine. And ketamine is off-patent, so I don't see it getting FDA approval for depression. So it will continue to be off-label and unaffordable for most depressed people.
So much depression is better, but me life sucks. I've been living with depression for so long I really have no life. I think I need to go back to therapy. But it really, really has to be someone who takes my insurance, with what I am spending on the ketamine. And it really needs to be someone good. I don't suffer fools lightly!
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